Dear Serina, 2 Septembre, 1997

Today is Tuesday. The sky was very blue and there were lovely big white fluffy and puffy clouds like cauliflower or cotton-ball thunder clouds in the sky. There was no smog — only blue sky and brilliant white clouds. A beautiful world. It’s been a very long time since I’ve seen anything that white. Bright and pure, yet puffy — possibly bringing cleansing rain.

Yesterday, there was a lizard in the kitchen. He was orange on top and dark grey on the sides. He was not scared of me. Because of his bright color and unfamiliar appearance, I ushered him into a shoebox where he calmly rested. He was very serene, not jittery skittish like all other lizards I’ve seen. But he did not walk or crawl into the shoebox—he slithered like a snake, using his feet perhaps only as oars to scoot along. Because of this, I realized he was not a lizard. I then though he might be a salamander until I remembered that salamanders don’t have scales which my new friend did have. He was only 4″ long and very thin (he looked perfectly like a stick when lying on the floor), yet his head looked like a dinosaur, not like a lizard. It had those round tympanums and was a bit alligatorish. I then noticed he had longitudinal gills that ran down between his fore and aft legs. I then knew that I had absolutely no idea whatsoever even what species family he was. Was he an amphibian? Was he a snake? He was both and neither. I thought I might hold on to him until Christopher could see him since Christopher knows a lot about different types of reptiles and other slidey-crawly things. Mom started saying that she wanted him out of the house so I put him in the garden.

I then remembered that they were doing a lot of pounding and crushing in the roadwork out behind the house and it reminded me of how live frogs and some other species are occasionally found inside frog-shaped crevices in rocks that are smashed apart during excavations. The frogs had buried themselves in mud flats thousands of years ago and have been in hibernation waiting for water so long that their little mud flats turn to stone which keeps them perfectly insulated and water tight—free from evaporation or bacteria or anything else.

Perhaps my friend was a singular example of a long extinct ancestor of lizards or snakes or crocodiles. Or maybe he was just a strange slithering gilled lizard I’d never happened to see before. If he was a new species, then it was the third time in my life that I have discovered a species—in the Philippines I discovered a tubular jelly worm that swam like a slinky and dissolved into nothingness when picked up. In the middle of the Pacific, in waters five miles deep, I once swam and saw a trilobite. Transparent like a jellyfish and almost two feet long. Also thought extinct for 50 million years, like the coelecanth once was.

I went out to see him again to see if I could photograph him, but he was gone. Regardless of where he came from and whether there are any others like him, he was still unique. It was a rare privilege to encounter such an elegant and serene creature.